Bottom Bunk Bed Kid

humans.
again, human are complicated creatures.
complicated by body, how everything turns out to be where it is.
and especially the mind.

what is blog? blog is a place where i can say anything as long as its something legal and wont get me into trouble with the country.

yes
and what did i do with my blog?
i say what i want and whatever i say, is what i think.
at least i filtered my post. i don't say name, i don't say specific somebody. so what to be pissed of. did i defamed anyone specifically?

well technically not everyone knows everyone in the world. so people, please don't worry. if i post about some kind of event whatsoever, u dont have to mad at me personally.

if you think that im talking about you, or you... or you.... then please think back. why is she talking about me, did i do sumthing wrong? if you don't, then it's not about you la. adoi. the world is not as small as some people think. people are everywhere... n i mean EVERYWHERE. i could be saying about my cousin, i could be saying about the gardener, i could be saying about my lecturer.

anyone.

so please. you know what they say... makan cili terasa pedas nyer (well, direct translation, who eats the chilli, they will taste the hotness, meaning if u think u had to do with it, then u know its about u, sumthing like that.)

u do the math. if u r pissed off with my blog, stop reading it and just close the window. keep ur hands of the keyboard, its for ur own good. huhu. im doing one of the donts of blogging. weheeeeheeeee

whatever u say, fine by me.

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human are complicated creatures. inside and outside, we have different behaviours, looks and other elements of a human being. looking at me and being me... im one complicated girl *yes im stilla girl, an older one*. when u look at nabilah othman, u see... hey she big and she's loud. looks like a happy go lucky girl, no problem ahead of her, happy at all times, very strong and tough. is that really true? how r u so sure im like that? not everything u see is true. not everything u think is true. these days, the only thing that made me have other emotions than happy and angry, is tv shows. maybe its just that the people around me cant even trigger this feelings. Ican cry easily even with the slightest sound of sincerety in a song or a speech.

Ngeh... maybe because its on tv, its not real so it feels real to me.maybe its the kind of thing that i want to see in real life u know. haha, dare to dream man... dare to dream. maybe i just need someone to kick me in the or in the ass, either way it hurts so i could wake up from this so called fantasy. Maybe im waiting for sumthing to come? Well one thing for sure, I dont have to worry that there's something wrong with me, not 'girl' enough. like the uncle in master art say, i look like someone very loud and happy always, but cries alone or cries at people's back, not showing them the real me. come to think about it, part of it is right. hey cmon, who wants other people to see how we look like when crying... i sure do look like crap, liquids coming out from everywhere, haha. well everything happen for a reason, and recently im watching hannah montana series, and it does keep me happy, well at least it helps, hehe. oh man, i love everyone *rite~~~~*

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not to brag or anything, but i dont care, its my blog. I GOT MY DEAN'S LIST!!!! WEEEEEEEEHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. first time in my life, i have this kind of thing, of course im happy. i havent got any recognition what soever in my whole life, well like this kind of course. its a thing that i dont really expect myself. but i still dont have my goal cgpa, 3.5 and above. need to get that done first. glad for myself. THANK YOU, THANK YOU VERY MUCH....

p/s: i hope people dont get jealous of what i achieved for the first time in my entire life, well i did work my ass, and be aware that everyone had their chance of sumthing this good, care for them and not ourself. oh n i got another oen for sem 2. haha i dont care i want to shout it out here... MWAHAHAHAAHAH

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WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Assignments!!!! Oh my god it's like coming over n over again like the niagra falls. Another one and all will end!!! weel onlu for this sem. Maybe next semester I'm going to take one subject up coz if not, I think I will die with all the assignments in semester 3. Its like double up!!!!!

I think my only hope subject of getting A is ruined. MPD plz stay with me.. uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

O well, hope everything would be well with exams and all.
Oh and one thing, Raya is coming and I'm freaking excited to go to Indonesia!!!! but maybe, and its a big possibility.. that I wont have any duit raya. wuuuuu they wont give any. But its ok. its the thought of hari raya that counts rite? *smiling hopingly at the corner of the room*

And one thing. Selamat hari raya everyone!!!!!

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