complicated creature
human are complicated creatures. inside and outside, we have different behaviours, looks and other elements of a human being. looking at me and being me... im one complicated girl *yes im stilla girl, an older one*. when u look at nabilah othman, u see... hey she big and she's loud. looks like a happy go lucky girl, no problem ahead of her, happy at all times, very strong and tough. is that really true? how r u so sure im like that? not everything u see is true. not everything u think is true. these days, the only thing that made me have other emotions than happy and angry, is tv shows. maybe its just that the people around me cant even trigger this feelings. Ican cry easily even with the slightest sound of sincerety in a song or a speech.
Ngeh... maybe because its on tv, its not real so it feels real to me.maybe its the kind of thing that i want to see in real life u know. haha, dare to dream man... dare to dream. maybe i just need someone to kick me in the or in the ass, either way it hurts so i could wake up from this so called fantasy. Maybe im waiting for sumthing to come? Well one thing for sure, I dont have to worry that there's something wrong with me, not 'girl' enough. like the uncle in master art say, i look like someone very loud and happy always, but cries alone or cries at people's back, not showing them the real me. come to think about it, part of it is right. hey cmon, who wants other people to see how we look like when crying... i sure do look like crap, liquids coming out from everywhere, haha. well everything happen for a reason, and recently im watching hannah montana series, and it does keep me happy, well at least it helps, hehe. oh man, i love everyone *rite~~~~*
